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Join Date: May 2007
Location: Spokane Valley, Wa
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Join Date: May 2007
Location: Spokane Valley, Wa
Posts: 473
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This one is pretty long, but hopefully not boring lol!
I have been treated for depression in the past, so I know what it feels like. I no longer take any meds of that nature, I leave my seratonin alone. I put the blame for my lack of motivation directly on the rsd/crps.
I was a lot like bassman, but no more "working through the pain". There has to be guaranteed end to the pain for THAT to work.
Joan, I have those stairs from heck in my place, too. If the toilet weren't upstairs and the kitchen down, I'd just stay on one level and let the other gather dust.
Junk, my rsd is mainly legs too, so driving sucks hard. And then doing the actual shopping, making my heels touch down on those hard store floors for an hour or so, under the blazing neon lights, yuckos! Plus, now that I have epilepsy, I am terrified to drive even though I am allowed to. I just can't take chances with other peeps lives, no matter what the dr.s say.
Michael has aids & HepC, so his motivational abilities are very limited. I "lucked out" and only got aids, but it is extremely tiring too. At the beginning, we could cover for each other's slack, we alternated whose turn it was to have a bad day, lol. Nowadays, that isn't happening as we get sicker and sicker.
Desi, we can combine piles of dirty clothes and see if we can reach the heavens, whaddaya think? It's just Michael and me, and we never leave the house, so it's amazing that we can even GET "piles", but we do. 
Dream, I know how you feel, getting dressed takes so much energy that it drains you and now you can't go. I had my first mammogram today. The only reason I didn't cancel the mammogram was that Michael bribed me with yummy greasy Jack-in-the-Box tacos, mmmmm! Michael and I went to Wal-Mart today after the test. We got into the parking lot, looked at each other, and got back in the truck. Until we run out of coffee and cream, it just isn't worth it, lol.
We ALL seem to be the same way. I have to wonder, though, if age and attitude have anything to do with it? The young folks with rsd/crps seem to be plenty motivated, lol. I don't know if ya all want to compare ages, too, but I'll start, I'm 44.
No, that is far from old, I agree, lol. But "old" has far more to do with attitude than chronology. I have been most places I wanted to go, and seen far more than I ever wanted to, sheesh. Now that I hurt constantly and severely, there just isn't much that excites me enough to want to get up and go. Only maturer adults weigh the consequences of their actions BEFORE they do them. With rsd, there are very few things to do that are worth the price we pay in terms of pain later. Even when the "something" is important, though, it can seem as insurmountable as scaling Mt. Everest.
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