Dancinglady,

What would you have us say in response to your Posts? You know most of us do not agree with your stance on suicide ideation as a perceived solution to a potential endpoint and will Post to try to make you see positives. This cannot change, it is altruistic Human Nature to protect another.

Would you rather we say nothing, leaving you calling plaintively into the Ether? That would be cruel.

These Forums are skewed in the direction of those who are seriously suffering and seeking help and support, along with the kind hearted who stick around and give advice even after they find a balance, or relief.

As you have visited the Forums you must have noticed countless past Members who have no further need for the services and support provided. One can extrapolate that many, many of these former Members are now leading happy, balanced, productive lives with their conditions under control.

There are countless Groups, Social Groups, Church Groups covering every topic and hobby where one can find appropriate company and friendship in the Real World. While you are still active is the time to take advantage of these services.

You are in the early stages of a condition that can be controlled by meds and your own actions. I firmly believe you need to be open about your current state with a Psychologist to work through this.

Forgive me for asking this - and do not answer if you do not want to - but, in your current position, do you now regret the attitude of yourself and your former colleagues in ER to pain patients, in laughing at them?

Dave.