I am so sorry for what you are dealing with.
The grief from losing your dear sister is still so new and I am sure making things worse.

Your are such a dear person and obviously had a lovely relationship with your sister.
I wish you were my brother.

I know your friends here can only go so far but, I have developed some very close friendships with folks on these forums. it simply started with a PM, then several more, then some emails, then, exchanging phone numbers. Maybe pick someone you feel close to and send a PM. There are such nice people on these forums. I think it is a wonderful source for friends. We get each other! Look at the lovely reminder from Bobby that God is always with us....I needed that reminder myself today.

Thinking of you,
Diandra