She had to spend some time calming me down, she's never seen me like that (and she's seen me PLENTY), so obviously she realized that 50mg of Seroquel isn't effective in managing major anxiety by itself.

So that's why we went with the 1.5mg of Klonopin- it works better and longer. I have a 3mg daily limit. I'll still have the Seroquel there if I need it. I need more anti-anxiety med in the am, a little less in the afternoon, and I don't take anything in the evening because of that 600mg pm dose of Seroquel.
I actually told her what BF had to say about being careful with the benzo's. Obviously she agreed, and she thinks he's a very smart guy
We talked about alternatives to benzos on my last visit, but not yesterday. I still like to have control... I'd like to get back to where I was before my last hospital visit. I was managing my anxiety better and was averaging 1mg of Xanax a day. I'm a long way off right now though.

We also talked about my OCD. She said that we might have to start talking about treatment for that sometime in the future, but I shut that down. I won't take anything for OCD unless it's to the point where it's handicapping because the treatments will leave me too vulnerable to mania. I was adamant about that.