Hi all, I originially found this site while just looking online for people experiencing the same thing as me but finally decided to post myself!

A little history, got my first concussion in April 2014 during a lacrosse game. Took a knee to the helmet. I felt foggy and kind of depersonalized for like a week and then was fine and played within 2 weeks. All was well.

In september 2014 I got a second concussion by taking a helmet to helmet hit in lacrosse practice. This time the foggy/depersonalized feeling lasted 1-2 months. I had lingering dizziness and vertigo for a couple months but a concussion specialist that i saw said that could've been due to cervical reasons so i saw a chiropractor which helped.

Got cleared to play in january 2015, even though I was probably only 85-90% better and took a small helmet to helmet hit (not too hard) and felt totally out of it, thought I was having a panic attack but turns out it was another concussion.

Also ive had anxiety and ocd my whole life as diagnosed by a doctor.

This third concussion in january is still having lingering effects i believe. Felt foggy/depersonalized for months, in april 2015 the concussion specialist finally told me that I would not play lacrosse again (probably for the best). They upped my dosage of celexa from 20mg to 30mg. Had been on celexa since freshman year in college. Was on 15mg of paxil since 9th grade before that.

At that point it was the end of my last semester of college and all of my friends were partying pretty hard. For the last month of college I drank a lot and pretty often, especially the last week. That definitely made things worse for a couple of weeks. Then I graduated and moved home which I think heightened my anxiety and maybe some post grad depression since I was moving away from all of my friends and my girlfriend still had another year of school.

I saw my doctor who prescribed me ativan which I took 1-2mg of as needed at first but turned into almost everyday for like 2 months. I'm convinced that that made things a lot worse. My cognitive symptoms were much worse and I felt like everything was a dream. Stopped ativan on August 28th so Im 6 weeks clean after a week long taper. Also had splitting headaches while on ativan that have stopped for the most part since stopping.

Im wondering if the ativan really set me back? Also should mention that I can lift weights and do cardio without it making any symptoms worse. That's why im wondering if me not feeling like myself right now and kinda of still foggy and stuff could just be from my anxiety?

I started taking 600mg daily of turmeric 4 weeks ago, I take fish oils twice a day, multivitamin, and B12. I've tried acupuncture like 4 times and see a therapist. I am looking into doing some LENS treatment i don't know if anyone on this site has heard of or had success with that?

My doctors tell me that I should give myself at least a year or two to fully recover but I feel like i've gotten worse since like april or may and am wondering if maybe that could be because of the ativan or anxiety?

Overall just looking for some positive support and positive thoughts. Thanks all!