Thanks everyone for the warm welcome & thoughtful responses.

I would like to write more & respond to each and everyone of your posts but my hands are a major source of pain & limit my ability to type, for that I apologize. Also, the hand pain has kept me out of returning to work. Have any of you found one of the drugs to be effective enough in being able to use one's fingers/hands daily? I really need a solution and only have until Dec to figure this out or bye-bye job, insurance etc.

I agree that I need to get a handle on the depression. The dark thoughts haunt me day & night.

Today I had a Small Fiber Skin Biopsy. I pray it comes back negative when the results come out in 3 weeks.

Thanks again everyone..I will try writing more soon. Maybe some voice reco. software is in order.

Cliffman