Actually it's been one of our picture perfect late summer days here. Temps around 80 and not a cloud. Should last all week. I'm sitting here inside thinking about all the mountain lake fishing I'd be doing were I well. It all seems like someone else's past now. It's so far away from me.

Thanks for your support. I'm feeling a little better at the moment even with the flaring. A combo of gabapentin, kratom, vicodin, and cbd oil. I might even be able to sleep. I have ambien but I hate the stuff.

One of the nastiest things besides the burning for me is that I get numbed out areas on my face and upper arms. It's almost like a mask and feels so weird. The tightness. Fortunately none on my face has pain yet.

And on and on I could go but I'm teaching myself not to dwell on the stuff I can't fix. And it's time for another relaxation CD. The interesting thing is that they are in part hypnosis and when I get into the zone, even with the flaring, for the time I'm in trance there is very little pain and a fair amount of bliss like feelings. Sometimes I feel like I'm off the bed floating. I wish I could stay there permanently. But eventually you gotta get to the bathroom and do the dishes.