Hockey,

I understand your pain. I have had similar thoughts.

I wonder if there is a living arrangement where you can get some separation but still be close. The first thought is a house with an in-law apartment where you can have the room to get away. You could set it up so it accommodates your struggles. You would be close enough to participate when you are up to it and be able to retreat when you need to.

I know it would be more expensive than your current situation but less expensive than you living alone.