Many of you are familiar with my situation here on NeuroTalk. Throughout this ordeal, I have actually been doing a lot of exercise, including cycling and running. These efforts have never made my symptoms worse, and I'm fortunate in that aspect. (What makes me feel worse is work and bad sleeps, generally). I've decided to really slow down my exercise exertion recently, however, so that I will have more energy and time to spend with my family, and I'm actually starting to feel worse.

Should I start it back up? What accounts for things going a little bit south while not exercising? I firmly believe that my continued cycling has actually helped me maintain my sanity.

Also--why does ones perception of time and even the wholly larger aspect of the calendar year in general seem so off with PCS? I was reading to my girls tonight and kept thinking it was March. At 7 months into this, time seems of irregular nature and goes by in a blur. I guess maybe that's just being in my 40s with a busy family and work life, with some PCS thrown in. There are some times I feel like maybe I'm as good as I'm going to get, and I'm trying to accept that. There are days that I feel good, and feel glimpses of my old self, but that is usually dashed the next day when I feel totally whacked. This means that life might just kind of be an off-kilter blur for the next 40 years.

Does anyone else feel like they brought this on themselves, or a variety of guilt about the incredibly botched recovery? I almost feel like I'm being punished for something. When I let it, this is by far the most challenging experience of my life.

Thanks for all the great help on this forum.