I do believe him. I just don't want to believe him. I know that makes no sense.

Plus.... I want to get him out of town this weekend. I want to take him out to the desert to see his family. They will be just as helpful as the tdoc and the pdoc and help keep him safe.

There is nothing for him to get into to hurt himself out there and he will be able to be distracted by helping others for 2 days.

We are seeing the pdoc tomorrow. I've got the t-doc and the pdoc's cell phone numbers so we are always in touch.

If this weekend doesn't help turn him around, then Wes and I both aggree to the hospital. We both want to try and wait it out. He feels safe with my husband who is going above and beyond his duty. But we've all aggreed that if he gets disassociative again, he's going to the hospital no matter what.

Which is why I put him there the first time last year. It's too much for me alone and it's not fair to his brother.