As I lie on my left side
Not to many positions left
to find any relief
For this body cries out to be
touched
Yet it hurts to get a hug
Regrets I have a few
My mind afloat hanging on
Attached a body that is rotting
quicker than quick
am getting tired of holding it together
the blatant disrespect I will never stand for



The office management in this building
For example
I did everything necessary on my part
having to go to DMV please that was another
slap you in the face disrespectful state workers
that were exposed over the years of my life
the corrupt activity giving out illegal licenses
to many not in this country legally as I had to become
a citizen
Nevertheless
I submitted required documentation to "them"
in the office
After thirty days I inquired
about my handy cap spot
that would keep me safe from where
I was given a spot
that left me to go to the car in horrible
weather if I have to go to the doctors
just an example
I was ignored
The wrong thing to do to this cookie
What was the sad fact is this
I am not to be reckoned with when I stand
in the truth
It saddens me to have to become assertive
and make my stance be heard
I bypassed the managers at this point
called main headquarters asked for Simmon
And the message I left went like such
"I am new to the building
And I know my rights
I have complied to the rules
I expect the management to do the same
I believe after thirty day lead time was more
than enough
Please
Do not make me make that ONE phone call"
In less than twenty four hours I was given a spot
that is right out the exit door to the second level
in clear view of the camera
Well in the week it was parked in its new spot
someone in retaliation mode
I believe it to even be
the office who is behind it
as I over road the witch who enjoys
strong arming people in this building
I had ten years experience with the
previous building
A great experience
But a horrific situation with the previous
building the judge stripped him becoming
owner of the building
Being in town picking up my Meds
passed by and the building is under major
repairs
This only two women
myself and another tenant
Ten hard years
And now this building
I DON'T THINK SO

YET AS YOU SAID DAVID
WHERE IS THE MANNERS
WHY CAN'T IT BE A SIMPLE PROCESS
WHY TRY AND STRONG ARM ME
AND THEN RETALIATE
BY KEYING MY CAR
AND THE OFFICE DID NOT WANT TO
VIEW THE TAPES
because
A week is to long to view
So now I do the work for them
Taking video everyday
in the end pan over to the camara
They were in the hope I would move my car
Not going to happen
Informed the office of my intentions
if the situation should happen again
I will call the police
have a report on file
Can you imagine
I mean really
All this unnecessary
If you just do your job
As I did what was required
It sickened me
But now the office gets me
Don't blank with me

Why are there persons
Many in my experience
That are plain BULLIES
NOT ON MY WATCH

anyhow just an example

Doing this
such as accepting money for an apartment
This I know for certain
Persons who have no business living in the HUD
involved building
Two some even three parking spaces
As the owner sent out a notice there is one free parking
per unit
Oh crap just sick of it
I'm getting angry just writing about it
Done

I will not ever allow anyone strong arm me
Or my family

Dear friends of mine
Who put up with my crap
Know I take no pleasure having
not being heard when talking to
management
But it is what it is
and my car gets keyed
Such beautiful people
Would you all agree
And then the one who want
a free ride on my skirt tail
Afraid of
"THEM"

I am sick of the bull turd
Corruption
Sick of it

I still do my duties
As mom and grandma
Today I'm tired

Posting not to loose my writing
Be right back
Someone told me about the
Remember me option
I can't find it
So
Ill just post
Come back via through
Edit
Here I go
Is what we go through
not a direct way we "handle"
OURSELVES
I want to be taken seriously
when I am soft spoken
Still waiting for the experience

What is wrong with people today

Is is so hard to smile when passing a stranger
Or a good day be offered
Have I become so hard

DEPRERESSION

Delivery of change
Enormous pain in my case a screwed up spine
Physical is my nature is gone as I knew it
Real you get to see the truth about another human
Enraged to learn pain will be permanent
Sad that doctors more than one failed me and lied
Scared as time goes by I cannot do without consequences
Isolated I am today not by choice
Ongoing so my doctors tell me
Never ending deep doomed unwelcomed sorrow

Do I give into the depression
Never
A constant battle to empower myself
on a daily basis
Worried can I make it through tis day

And because I have a place I can come to
and express my experiences
get feedback
and be cared for
just by listening and know
all will be here if I need a place
that others understand

I DO NOT COOSE TO FEEL WHAT I DO
I AM CONSTANTLY APOLIGIZING TO MY FAMILY
NEVER A THOUGHT I WOULD GET ILL LIKE I AM

SO THANK YOU FRIENDS
LOVE
ME