As some of you may, or, may not know, I am recently, divorced. It was final on April, 9th.My ex, still lives here with me, mostly, for the reason, that, I am lonely here by myself. We tried him moving out. It only lasted for 3 days. He's a drunk. To be quite honest. I have alot, of problems with him. I always have. I am in the process of getting my driver's license back, after almost 10 years, without it. I just purchased myself a car. So, for now, and, it has been this way for a long, long, time. My ex is driving me around. He takes me to work. Which, is only about 1 1/2 mi. from our house. Most days, I find my own way home. I cannot tell you on how many, many, occasions, I have walked myself home. Sometimes, in blistering heat, wearing a black, polyester, uniform. Because, he was at the bar, drinking, and, did not want to leave to bring me home yet. We're not talking about one beer, that takes 15 minutes to drink. We're talking HOURS, of drinking. Incidentially, I have to now give him at least $10.00/per day for him to take me to work. Not to mention, buy him cigarettes, and, occasionally, beer, also. This, is his price for a five minute car ride. In the past two days, I have given him $80.00 to take me to work, and, home, three minutes down the road from my work, on the way home, to the tanning bed, and, about 5 miles down the road, to the YMCA. Tonight, I waited 1/2 hour past, the time the YMCA was closed, for him to pick me up. We had agreed upon 10:00 p.m. pick-up time. I finally, started walking, at 10:30 p.m. And, this, is SUCH typical behavior of him.
Then, to make matters worse, he tries to guilt me every chance he gets. For one, if, I won't cook his food (like tonight) , he just won't eat at all. He's incredibly underweight. And, he knows, that, it makes me feel bad, when, he doesn't eat. Another guilt trip, is whenever, I threaten to cut off the money supply to him, he threatens suicide. He calls me his best friend. If, this, is how he treats his best friend, how, does he treat his enemies? I'm tired of being used. I REALLY want to find a new boyfriend. Someone, who, would step in, and, put an end to all this. I feel, trapped, to say the least. It's quite a trade off just to not be completely alone. Anyway, sorry for rambling, just had to get this off my chest.

Peace, and, Love,
Cgirl