There are no words to describe the sorrow I felt reading the second to last paragraph. I created an account just to say.. are you there? Do you still watch? I Stumbled Here By accident.... but had I seen it the year it was posted I would not have understood.. so much can change in.. wow. 8 years about?
Please please tell me you're there. If you were to not reply... I would be driven mad by the anxiety I Fear So badly.