My husband told his boss that he wouldn't be lifting anything heavy yesterday. I'm surprised they let him work at all because they know he injured himself on the job. But his back held out for him, despite his 11hr day. He's in a lot of pain, and is not moving around well. I bought him some Aspercreme, it actually has 4% Lidocaine in it. That's another thing I'm surprised is available OTC now. It seems to have worked a little bit. I hope a weekend of rest helps restore him.

I used my old pharmacy yesterday because their coupon for a med was about $30 vs. the about $75 coupon at my new pharmacy. The plan was to pick it up on my way back from dropping off the med release at pdoc's office. To make a long story short, I lost my temper twice because of screw ups- a very, very rare occurrence in the last 10mo. and it doesn't feel good. I had to pay an extra $10 in "waiting time" for cab fare because I was in there for 20min. At least I still saved money.
I have to go to the new pharmacy today. I'm thrilled... but at least I know my scripts will be ready.

Thinking about it, I'm not sure if I should be concerned about the weekend because it requires, "mental and, at times, emotion participation (that) can be quite intensive" or not...
I am very open with all of you, and I know that you realize I'm vulnerable. But I am quite used to hiding my emotions and usually remain stoic. I'm going to try my best to only focus only on the substance abuse element. The rest is not their business. To be honest, I do feel like some of these programs give themselves more credit than they deserve in the emotional department because everyone is there because the court has mandated it.

That being said, it sounds like it may be hard to remove myself from uncomfortable situations if the need arises, which is my usual coping mechanism and that makes me weary. I don't know how I'll respond under those conditions. And I can forsee someone pressing me hard about the neck scar, and I can see myself responding to it in an, ahem, less than lady-like way.

The things I have working for me are:
1. I'm stable on meds
2. I've been mostly taking 1mg Klonopin in the am, although my script is written for "1mg up to 3mg a day." So I have some control there and
3. I'm capable of stifling emotion to a certain extent

The things I have working against me are:
A lot of unknowns

I can't wait to get that paperwork. I do much better with more information.

So, what say you?