Had a meeting yesterday, they are looking instead for me to go for 2 weeks in December rather than 4 weeks in November. Evidently I am at a higher level than the group intake for November and they believe I wouldn't get as much out of it even though it's 4 weeks vs 2 weeks. I confess 2 weeks sounds better to me and makes me feel much better about them. Let me explain, my husband initially cynically said they just want you to fill the place up and keep their money coming in, well that's debunked isn't it... I believe they have my best interests at heart and the way they explained it yesterday made so much more sense. So, next Monday I begin the twice a week outpatient 1-4pm sessions, at the end of November I have 2 full days inpatient sessions and then 2 weeks inpatient from December 6th.

Their aim is to assist me find better ways of managing my anxiety/ depression/ PTSD all of which trigger my pain receptors and vice versa. Thank goodness for Private Health Cover. My aim is to continue to reduce medication to as needed rather than daily maintenance and live a life mindful of good health with a balanced nutrition and reduce further my ongoing risk of bowel complications. I am open to any suggestions on how to live life without the daily risk of bowel blockages and peritonitis. We have been told if I require intestinal surgery ever again I am at significant risk with fatal consequences.

Now that it has been extended out to December, I am toying with the idea of having another epidural root sleeve injection. I got significant relief for at least a month from the last one (in December) which I think would put me in a good place to be able to sit still when in these group sessions. Currently I'm like a jack in the box, up and down all the time and I worry it will disrupt the rest of the group. Oh well, there you go, my mind over thinking things again...