I lost my Mother suddenly in 2009 and my Dad died of brain cancer this year in January. The grief of losing a parent is I think the worst thing you can ever feel unless you lose a child. Now that both of my parents are gone there is this loneliness in my soul. My heart goes out to you! I hope you can find someone to talk to. There are groups in almost every town at the hospitals and Hospice that can help. My prayers for you that you find peace!