My husband and I went food shopping yesterday, so I got out of the house. The weather was very nice. And after taking it easy on myself and ordering out 2 nights in a row, my husband and I had had enough heartburn and I decided to cook last night. It was nothing spectacular, but at least I got my head out of the sand for a while.

On the license front:

I called the NH DMV to pay my $100 fine yesterday and I asked about that special insurance certificate again (it's called an SR22 and it's just proof of insurance). Apparently once the NH DMV receives proof that I've taken the driving class they'll send me a special form to take to the MA DMV to get the SR22 ball rolling.

After 2 calls to the driving class people trying to figure out how long it would take for the DMV to get word I took the driving class, a lady told me that they had to email me a consent form for me to sign and mail back to them because I took my intake with a different organization and they have to be the ones to file the paperwork. This makes me nervous because any time you add an extra entity you increase your chances of (expletive) ups, and I'm sure this will delay things. Also, the people at the organization in question aren't exactly sharp as tacks. By the way, would anyone have picked up on this issue if I hadn't called?

I called the MA DMV to ask what I needed to do when I got the form re: SR22. Basically, I have to provide them with everything they would want if I was going there to get my license back...
Fortunately, I have already requested the documents I *think* I need from the court for that and can make copies when I get them, but I'll need to go to the NH DMV to get a copy of my driving record again.
I'm glad I called because I would have shown up with just the form otherwise. Nobody tells you anything. And there are no instructions anywhere. I guess that's why everyone hires a lawyer. Fortunately for me, I'm paranoid and persistent.

After MA deals with the form, I can get insurance and the SR22 certificate to satisfy NH, ending my ordeal with that state with the exception of a trip to the main DMV office.

I was so proud of myself for getting through last weekend like I did, but I don't feel any closer to getting my license back anymore if MA is going to suspend it for another year. I still feel compelled to get things done quickly though because if they suspend it, they suspend it for a year from the date you restore it.

It's double jeopardy. And because I need that SR22 for NH, I may be paying for very high priced insurance for a year even though I may be unable to drive. And I'm unwilling to accept the idea that I may be stranded for another year.

We're not flush and my husband is already upset about the cost of the insurance, so he is hating the idea of me hiring a lawyer. But if they suspend my license when I go to have it restored, I'm going to fight it.
I don't know if I should hire a lawyer for the restoration hearing (probably cheaper) or wait until they probably hit me with a year's suspension and have to appeal.

It's good to have the correct information and be prepared, but I have to somehow stop fixating on this. I'm going to have to deal with the fact that I will have to wait for some things and that there are things that are out of my control. The way things are going, I think it will be a while before I can get around to seeking my license restoration in MA anyway. Since the result of that is the most depressing part, I'm going to have to find a way to stay more in the present.

2mg Klonopin this morning.
I see pdoc at 3 today.
I want to be very careful that this doesn't turn into something situational and into something worse.