After expressing how it disturb me
that my eldest is sending out invatations
for a family thanksgiving dinner
A cop out
Just a way out of not having to talk about what
went wrong between us
He also thought it be odd
Maybe wedding invatations
Another thing I wasn't there for
Yup
Not a part of that either
She never even told me
And I managed to shove that down
somewhere deep
Not forgotten
when crap like this can go down between family
blows my blanking mind
And like Debi my children would too get the back of my
hand if they are disrespectful
I don't get it
How does that give them the go ahead to
the kind of behavior that is put on me
Not the one who feeds you E V E R Y T H I N G
and I do not mean on a material level
I have no reason to hurt my children
It does not enter this beings body to go out of
my way to destroy this family

I am calling management in this building on their crap
Yesterday I went downstairs to get a flu shot
I had just asked the office about my granddaughters
mothers application to see if she was on the list
What management did was say NOMORE APPLICATIONS
what did my God do for me
Just after asking for one for my daughter Christine and Eva
a woman standing outside the office
up against the wall was filling out an application
It would be just awesome if she could live so close and not be
a slave to the babies father
When she comes home from rehab it is the only place she can go
I did pull my weight and that's all I can do

What went wrong between Sara and me

With a prayer
Will return with more to share
Love
Me

Today I will continue where I left off
So like my shrink told me yesterday
Invatations to a wedding
But for family gathering
She is trying to make a point
And I'm not to sure what that is
Everything about her life since a little girl
the mom who worked nights for more than ten years
Full time five nights into the morning
For THEM
They are older and should be able to
understand what I gave up
for them
And know they owe me zero in return
This behavior
Never would have imagined
Still hitting me hard
Love
Me