I wonder if my friends family and acquaintances
We're ever even really that
They are gone as the years pass

I wonder if I am ever a thought
There is no life

I wonder if I will be granted a miricle
And all this pain I have just dissipate
Into the abyss

I wonder if one day my tears would just stop

I wonder how this all will pan out with family dynamics
out of control

I wonder if my daughter will have some what of an awakening
while in rehab

I wonder if the obsession has lifted
if the pain is that great there is no turning back

I wonder I my dead father is watching over my babies
if it be the least he can do in the spirit world

I wonder is there a spirit world

I wonder if my mother is suffering any regrets how she
treated her three daughters

I wonder if she ever was able to see outside her rose tinted
glasses
we needed her at very important times in our lives

I wonder if she knew how much I need her when I had my breasts removed because of cancer something that is close to
home for her
her mother my grandmother died of it

I wonder what it will be like when either of us would be called
by our Father to come home

I wonder is there an afterlife
Eternal with our Father

I wonder is my Faith is strong enough
to honor and remember my day as a blessing
to have found my lump that quickly

I wonder if anyone knew of the new findings
That men have superseded breast cancer
I was shocked to hear of the new findings
As I was shocked to see so many men in to see a doctor
because of a lump they found

I wonder if my children will be spared the pain of this disease

I wonder if my fellow friends here understand how grateful I am to have a place to be touched by someone's response
and be able to do the same in return
This world is one big family
It's a shame we are so divided over some really stupid stuff

I wonder if my granddaughter will remember me by my smell
again she fell asleep on my lap in the handy cap cart to shop
She drulled on my chest
Upon waking she said Mimma
You smell sooooo good can I keep it

I wonder if our strong connection will ever be broken
as this family has its issues

I wonder if any of the family thinks how
My nephew an only child
Eva a only child
How tiny this family really is

I wonder if my son will keep in touch

I wonder if saying hello to all and wish all
well is reached

I wonder