Cliffman, I think it's understandable to feel that way. Starting on a medication is always tough, and difficulties coping with a chronic illness are to be expected. But your just at the beginning of this. You don't know what the future holds. Hang in there, and do everything you can to find the cause and treat it. Even if you remain ideopathic, keep doing all the things that are recommended here, to give yourself the best chance to improve or at least stabilize.