Still not feeling as sad as I should.
Everyone is gentle around me.
I cry, but don't feel as sad as I thought i would.

I mostly feel empty. And alone.
Like it's always been the two of us. And now I am alone.
It's not even his fysical presence I miss the most, it's the feeling inside me. Like something is gone from within my body and it is my heart or my soul or I don't know.

I feel so alone. I am not alone, but it's alone on a different level. I can't even explain.

I miss the sound of him breathing. And his smell. Everthing.
But I also feel dead inside. Or not dead, but broken.