I am so sorry you're feeling such stress of being on yor own, it's hard I know. It's really hard being on your own. I remember how it was when I was alone for almost a year, I had Jackie of course but it was different because he couldn't talk to me, and he still pretty much can't have a real conversation yet. I know how frustrating it is having to go to the store all the time and getting things dealt with like health care related stuff, like making appts and getting prescriptions from the pharmacy and so forth.

It's exhausting sometimes, I wish you well Barbara, I know it hurts right now, but it will get better with time. Just stick to your guns and maybe pick up a pen and paper when you're feeling bad so you can vent in poetry, your writing is a tool you can use to make yourself feel better, so don't feel bad for using it.