My chili came out excellent. But my husband refused to taste test it and used the excuse that he was full even though there was a ton left in his bowl. It was obviously too hot for him again but he refused to admit it lol. I thought it was fairly mild. I'm going to have to start making it without any heat for him. I guess he's going to pick up some tostitos and finish it off lol.

I had requested some documents from the courthouse last month, they cashed my check Oct. 21st, but still no documents. So I called over there yesterday. The clerk said they were behind and I should give them about a week. No big deal. It looks like I won't need them for quite a while.

Donna, I hate waiting. I'm so impatient lol.
But I think I'm starting to resign myself to it. The light at the end of the tunnel has become very faint because of set backs and the more I find out about the bureaucratic process I'm going to have to go through. I figure I'll probably end up getting my license reinstated sometime in January at this rate (unless MA tries to hit me with another year).

I told my husband I'll have to get to and from the doctors' offices again. The plan is to drop both forms off in one day, and pick them up on another day when they're both ready. And this time, I'm going to the post office ONCE to mail the medical forms and consents out together.

The only time limit this time is the one I force upon myself. And I'm not going to pressure myself needlessly.

Once the intake people get the paperwork in, they'll file proof to the court and the NH DMV that I took the class, but it will take an unknown period of time until the NH DMV will send me the paperwork I need to get through the next long complicated step.

I think I'm finally surrendering to time and bureaucracy. There is absolutely nothing I can do about it and fixating on it has been very detrimental to me.

Still worried about the possibility of that substance abuse evaluation though. I'm sure I'll freak out if I have to go through that. And the thought of it is still causing a good deal of anxiety.
But since the intake lady is contacting the driving school directly for the class info, it should come back to her pretty quickly. So if I need that eval I should get a call back from her soon. The more time goes by, the safer I'll feel on that front.

That period of depression was definitely situational. I actually feel better off now than I did before mainly because I'm not going to let this license business rule me anymore- at least for the time being (it will get more stressful down the road). It's pretty amazing I'm pulling myself together since I have a lot going on.

Only 1mg Klonopin this am.