Hi Debi,
Hope, bless her heart, has just written quite a post, yet again.
This one leaves me speechless.
What an amazing post written by Hope.
I am not often speechless, by the way.
I have been thinking of you, wondering what I would read upon my return.
I am sorry you are feeling so down. I do feel it's a part of the grieving process and "normal."
I do think counseling/therapy or a support group could be helpful to you. I so wish my mother had gone this route. I honestly feel it would have helped her so much. I feel you know yourself very well and will be able to discern what will and won't be helpful to you.
I know the process you are going through will be a long one, not an impossible one, yet a challenging one.
Please know we all love you, hold you dear to us, and support you.
Offering Love, Light (to ward off the darkness) and Support,
DejaVu