Thanks Lily.

The worst part is I just didn't realize how vulnerable I was to overstimulation. The exhaustion hit me like another concussion mid conversation that day but I didn't get any signs of fog prior to that. I knew I felt exhausted and fatigued even in the clarity but thought i could handle a conversation, but I could not. I really hope it's a sign of potential improvement. I am terrified though that nothing similar has happened in over 45 days.

Things just have been completely stagnant, my sense of self and identity just doesn't populate in my head, making eye contact and any emotional connection with anyone impossible. It's hell and the hopelessness just keeps weighing on me. I am doing everything I can to improve this, but if things stay the same I just don't know how I will cope. This forum has been a good resource to vent and find people who can lift me up at least for a few of these moments.