Blessed,

I think everything has an answer or explanation except for pcs! I have learned to have to accept some of the ups and downs as beyond my understanding. Didn't make me very happy at first but if a doc can't explain it to me how can I.

I had terrible anxiety starting at 6 months post injury. It sounds silly but laying down and being still frightened the crap out of me. I could sleep for no more than a half hour and only when exhausted, it was a fight for my life. I couldn't sit still for more than a couple of minutes and was afraid to go next door to the neighbors, much less around the block.

This year I still have monsters at times but I can watch an entire basketball game again without pacing and having to go to the bedroom to calm myself down, same with football! I am a bit nervous about the noise but tonight I am going to a Sacramento Kings game for the first time since my injury, I am expecting it to do ok with a little nursing along the way, like a couple of extra trips in the hall to escape noise.

Been huge gains at small increments.

Anxiety is a skilled liar and reminds me of the Big Bad Wolf, it huffs and puffs a lot but is toothless. The hard part is trusting that it is a liar and logic and experience are correct.

You can do this...especially if you have family, that was and is my greatest motivator and trusting God.

Bud