I have no one but myself
giving the benifit
and hope the request was genuine
in the end that I agreed to to a computer
ON my plastic for college
This was the latest request
wrote auout it briefly
not to long ago
There are many horrible things going on
Her husband
A full blown alcoholic had a liver transplant
And went right back to drinking and doping
herion brought into my sisters life in the last 10
years
They aren't living together
Because of his out of control use
My sister on line every morning at six in the morning
and still used
Was promised to pay off the computer my nephew George
needed
She calle
Agreed it to be paid in two installments
I am moving forward with bankruptcy
To get my children's financial burden
no longer be mine
I want to pay off computer I do so
Now what knocks the wind out of me
This month would have been installment two
and computer would have been paid
But because she couldn't begin in October
asked if November and December is the next
Way promised
Mind you the minimum payment went up forty more in
addition with the purchase I had to cover
you see my dilemma
I put myself there
Trusting her
It was to be paid off in two installments
I have to wait now till the end of December when she gets
her bonus
I blame noone but me
She on the other hand
accuses me of texting her in a mean manner
I'm still waiting for anybody to show me where I may
have been mean
NOTHING
asking her to "kindly call" twice
Does this break my heart
It most certainly does
She accuses me if being mean
A way to start an argument and may skip
the promise she made
Yup
That kind of family

BUT AGAIN
I BLAME MYSELF
PERIOD

after this is behind me
I think some of my fear will be lifted
Looking at my financial history the lawyer will see
Am so proud to say NEVER LATE
ON MANY ACCOUNTS CLOSED
Throughout my entire life
I was able to show my seventeen year old
My credit could not have been any better
With this said
The lawyer will see how responsible I am
I just cannot do anything now
My children because of me
And now possibly my sister
I hope not
She said at the end of December
Before Christmas
I'm so angry at me
And the fight we had
Even though I was on the truth
She didn't want to see that
This at 6:00 in the morning via text
Sick of it
Me