About the missing jacket...

My dad said when he went to look in the basement all he could find where my stuff had been was my wedding dress. I had a LOT of stuff down there and some of it was expensive and/or sentimental. I can only hope someone just moved it. But I know some of it will be missing.

There are things I have wanted to go get, but haven't because that is where I made my s/s attempt and because that is where all the events (and people) directly leading up to it happened and I don't have the courage. But this kinda makes me want to go over there and see what else they've stolen from me.

To be kind, my father's wife's family is a drug-dealing white trash band of thieves. In addition to bp, my dad's mind is not quite right anymore (probably from years of heavy alcoholism), and he has no balls.

When I was lying on the floor bleeding, my father's wife's granddaughter was jumping up behind the cops to get a better look and was laughing. It wasn't just in my mind. One of the police officers told my father she did it... she almost got herself arrested that night. These are the type of people I am talking about...

I'm not going to get into it in any detail, but things really went to (expletive) for me when my dad went to FL last year and left his wife's granddaughter living with me (to "help me" lol). And she started dealing drugs out of the house, and I made the mistake of telling him. He said he didn't believe me even though she's not the only one in his wife's family who deals drugs. He handled it BADLY and all hell broke loose.

He's told me on multiple occasions he knew I was telling the truth about the drugs (you can't turn back time, dad), but was under pressure from his wife. Knowing all he does about her, the granddaughter lives in his house, he pays for her car, her school, and God knows what else and she works for him. He's told me all this. And he has the nerve to complain about her to me because she has violent outbursts. She's 20 BTW.

I'm 1/4 children who still speaks to my father. I'm the one with the best reasons not to. Several members of my family are very angry I still have contact with him after what happened. I think he harbors a lot of guilt over my s/s attempt. He should, but I've forgiven him. But I told him if we were talking on the phone and I heard his wife chime in once, I'd hang up and wouldn't talk to him anymore. He's respected that. Apparently he's stood up to her on that point because usually you can't get that (expletive) to shut her (expletive) mouth.

I didn't leave it well with my father. I let him know in no uncertain terms what I thought about those (expletive) (expletives) and where they could go. And I said I was too angry to talk anymore.

It is just a jacket. But then it's not. It's the point. It's what it represents.

Thank you for reading. I think I just needed a vent.
I feel better now.