Hi baba
I can sympathize. Sometimes it feels like my body is just an ** haha
Autoimmune illness, sfn, hypothyroidism, anxiety disorders, Lyme disease badly as a child, hypermobile joints that do whatever they want...there is always something hurting, wrong, off, etc.
I was panicked and depressed when sfn hit a year and a half ago. I couldn't believe I was getting ANOTHER problem. I dealt with a terrible increase in anxiety and a bad run with depression as a result.
Eventually though, as always, I adjusted. The human spirit is often times resilient. I don't know if I improve if I worsen. It is hard to read my flares and symptoms. All in all I just try to do the best I can and live life outside of my head.
I think it helps me to envision myself as getting better when I'm really down. It may be some sort of denial-but it lifts anxiety and depression for me, and those two things lifting help the physical pain quite a bit.