Hi Gunny,

First of all, condolences for the loss of Tessa, doubly tragic when one so young survives so much to succumb to inner Demons.

As for you, my friend, it is a pleasure to read anything and everything positive in your treatment and your daily life. You clearly have a trusting partnership with your Dr and that, along with positive results from treatment, has radically changed how you project here. You seem excited to move forward with different regimens, rather than being resigned and disillusioned. It is wonderful to get that vibe from you, even though I lnow you still have the serious issues you talk about. Yet, even your attitude there seems very much to have changed.

I enjoyed reading your ramblings, always remember you have an audience here for your words. The tail (haa!) of Russell's training origin and both of your triumphant return to the Prison makes excellent reading. I have seen a tv prog about the training of Service Dogs by Prisoners and the profound effect it has on sometimes lost souls, what better way to re-integrate into society?

All in all, I hope you and your Dr (and Russell) keep working to improve every aspect of your life and I look forward to the Post where you say the Ideation has passed completely.

Dave.