It is real
It is not welcomed
It comes to visit me while I sleep
It is even in my dream state I am aware
what is happening
I wait listen in my dream I can feel it begin
to settle in my gut
The core of me and just wants to control
all else that will follow
I will awaken in a very uncomfortable unsettling
entity and when it manifests into a physical way
I'm screwed for a bit
I try and be very aware of this and am doing my hardest
NOT TO SLIP AWAY INTO THE ABYSS
with no way to return

Depression sucks big time
And just because I was diagnose
with deep depression traumatized by my dad
At an earlier time in my childhood that I took
Into my adult life
Now I am trying to live
somewhat of a life with all these
issues one moment at a time
Love

Me