Feeling frustrated with my doctors and life.

Dx sensory/motor nerve damage

I'm too the point where I can't stand for longer than a few minutes. Showering is a chore, keeping up with the family is impossible, and I am not leaving the house most days.

My neuro had originally said a spinal tap would probably not show anything abnormal. I've had MRI of head and spine and bloodwork done which the doctors don't think the bulging discs/B12/anemia/WBC/platelettes are related. Now the next step is spinal tap.

I haven't been given any information/advice/suggestions except to take vitamins and up meds. If they don't think a spinal will show anything, why do it? I'm at the point where I feel nothing will ever help so it doesn't matter. My family is pushing for more tests/trips to mayo/etc. I just don't really want to at this point.

I've never been depressed. I was a busy working mother and now I am successful if I shower or make dinner.

I'm rambling and not sure what I'm even asking or wanting to hear but feeling desperate.