I'm sorry. I can relate. I have a doctors appt tomorrow that my NP has put off twice now! And the last time I was there was when she told me I had *very* high cholesterol but never did give me any numbers. And a liver enzyme out of whack as well. Gotta love 'em - *not*.

My anxiety was causing me to have asthma-like attacks and I don't have asthma. I couldn't sleep because I couldn't breathe. As soon as I'd lay down it would feel like my lungs were filling up with fluid. Scared the t-total hell outta me. It took about 3 months of Celexa, Buspar, and a several different asthma meds to get that part under control. Up until that point I never slept more than 2 hours at a time. We even ripped up the carpet in the bedroom and put down wood flooring. During that period was the closest I ever came to quitting smoking since I first started smoking. Ended up in the ER with shortness of breath. The doc on duty was one I knew from nursing clinicals. She listened to my lungs and told me if it would make me feel better she'd go ahead and X-ray them. She meant it...she wanted to relieve my anxiety. She told me my lungs were both clear as bell and she couldn't believe I was a smoker. She looked at me and said, "You know what's going on don't you? You're having an anxiety attack." As soon as she said it it all clicked and I burst into tears. It was a relief just having a name for it. She gave me a script for enough Xanax to get me through to my regular doctors appt I had scheduled for that following Monday. This was Friday night. I didn't get the script filled til Sunday afternoon cause I was scared to death of Xanax. But when the inhaler she gave me was working for only 2 hours at a time I figured I had nothing to lose and got it filled. Do you know, within 20 minutes of taking one pill all my symptoms were gone as if they'd never been. That's when I was 100% convinced.

So right now you're not taking anything for anxiety? And you do have anxiety? or is it more depression. Most of time, as I'm sure you know, they go hand in hand. It's a cycle...no matter which came first it triggers the other. My anxiety triggered depression which made me more anxious and on and on.

I wish I could wave a wand and make you feel better. Heck, I wish that for all of us.