I am anxious and stressed out. In addition to disturbing psych symptoms breaking through my regular meds because the anniversary of my s/s attempt is coming up, I've been worrying about my father, and have a couple of my own health concerns to deal with. I simply don't need this right now.

I don't deal well when I'm ill-informed. It drives up my anxiety. And I don't know what to expect when I hear from these people tomorrow. I don't know if they will:

- Try to schedule me for a $200 substance abuse evaluation
- Try to base service recommendations solely on the instructor's notes
- Call me in for the exit interview I was robbed of
- Conduct that interview over the phone, or
- Do something that I can't anticipate.

I could be facing 6mo or more of counseling, and the accompanying costs, but hopefully less since I've been voluntarily sober since July 20th if they believe me. No matter what, I'll likely be without my license for a long time.

I'm seriously worried I may be in contempt of court since I lied at the intake (and I also test well) and therefore they found me not to be at risk of having a substance abuse disorder, yet I admitted to being an alcoholic during the driving class- and there's a paper trail.
I can explain it by way of my second hospitalization this year and involvement in AA there, but I'd rather not have to do it in court- thank you very much.

I've been back and forth with being overwhelmed by the whole process of getting my license back for quite a while...
Then one day I'm celebrating because I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel, and the next, this pops up to black it all out.

This is just too much for me to absorb. It's really testing my limits.