I got mines from a cocaine relapse. It's asymmetric and hurts. Gabapentin hasn't helped, I've done the vitamin thing and it only helps a little. I'm 18 months out already. Is this a death sentence? Have there been any success stories? Is this condition linked with suicide? I'm only 31 and feel like I'm 80 yrs old. Will I be able to have a job again? Date and live life again? May God help me.