Thank you all

Like Bobby, I have control issues. The better informed I am, the better I feel and the better I function. I will be much better off once this phone call is out of the way and I get a better idea of what's going to happen.
Then I will be able to act upon whatever situation I find myself in.

What worries me the most is the impact this will have on our finances, but of course the legal ramifications are also a big concern.

I've read the NH DUI laws several times. They are very strict. Drunk.org is bound by the law to re-evaluate people after the driving class if there is a concern they are at risk for substance abuse problems, but the "service plan" is up to their discretion. They won't be handing me a free pass, and I don't have any leverage at this point.

A lawyer can't help me unless I'm actually held in contempt of court, drunk.org decides to dump extra "aftercare" on me after I finish the counseling they recommended (I can request a hearing), or if MA tries to take my license away for another year at the end of all of this (I can request a hearing).

Yesterday I ended up taking 2mg of klonopin with the 100mg of seroquel. My anxiety was so high it wasn't sedating. No, I'm not showing any signs of hypomania.
The good news is the ugly imagery and intrusive thoughts still haven't come back since I increased the seroquel to 100mg.

This is all good old fashioned anxiety.