Hi newbie,
I'm sorry you're dealing with all this. I would really suggest you try to get a handle on the anxiety if it's this bad at such an early stage. The problem with anxiety/panic attacks is that once they become entrenched it can become extremely difficult to stop them. I went through this many years ago especially with driving. Unfortunately it became almost impossible for me to leave the house for quite a long time. It was disabling.

Please talk to your doctor or another professional who understands anxiety as it is associated with PCS so that you can overcome this as early as possible. I make it sound easy, and believe me, I know it's not, it's just that I worry so much when I read posts such as yours where the anxiety is already changing your day to day life in such a way.

I truly hope that you are feeling a lot better when it comes time for your trip home for Christmas.