$610 IS a lot of money, especially considering it doesn't include any of the counseling sessions. I'll be shelling out at least $400 a month for those, and I'll be paying another $60 a month for drunk.org to "monitor" me.

I wish I could video tape the high five... it's ****ing awesome! I just put my hand up and he does it.
He'll only do it when he's alone on the couch with me, so my husband can't see it or record it. He thinks I'm FOS. Oh well, It's something special just for me then

My husband would never send out Christmas cards. He would never buy his family presents (they expect them) either. So far, I've bought his mother and sister Yankee Candles online. He would just buy gift cards at the drug store. He'll probably just buy his step father a 30pk of Bud Light and put a bow on it. I was pushing for a Pats Tee shirt.

I only have the limited information my husband has given me to go on as far as how his family feels about me. He told me not to text on birthdays or holidays...
However I got a Christmas card with a $50 gift card from his father in the mail yesterday. He signed it "Dad" as he always did. We were always very close. I will text him to thank him today. It's appropriate. I don't care what my husband thinks.
My mother in law also sent a joint home for me (for the paresthesias in my legs from the MS) one day. My husband told me not to text her to thank her directly.

On another note, the unpleasant imagery has returned, but I think it's intrusive thoughts rather than PTSD this time. I think it's due to the substance abuse counseling making me think about why I stopped drinking triggering thoughts about my s/s attempt.
I have to make an appointment with pdoc. She was very worried about the intrusive thoughts during our last visit. Those thoughts haven't returned. She is really not going to like these.
I don't know what kind of intervention she is going to recommend, but I don't believe it's a safe time for her to introduce an antidepressant, and I will not take one.
I'm not showing any signs of hypomania or depression, but my anxiety has been high off and on lately and making it hard for me to settle down. That leads me to believe that if I swing, I'll be up again. I don't need an antidepressant on board if that happens.

Kay