I tried celexa but that did nothing for me. I don't think the wellbutrin is doing anything either so i don't expect a change when i got down to 150. I think i need more risperdal which in the past had caused me to gain so much weight besides probably giving me diabetes.
the klonopin dose i am on is not eliminating the awful anxiety. I think the risperdal would dull me and stop me from being provocative. I went to the senior center yesterday and sat at my old table. Michael, the guy i had the confrontation with was sitting at another table. I am certain he lowered his voice yesterday. I don't think it was a coincidence.
I am so worried about my urge to eat. I don't want to get on the scale but if i keep this up i will gain 20 pounds. I had lost sixty. I haven't found any wisdom on the internet about binge eating. I am going to skip the senior center today i think and just have hard boiled eggs. I don't have much food in the apartment except for cannollini beans and eggs. last night i made egg salad with onions.

when i walk now I feel the extra weight and grow tired faster. this morning i probably will go for a walk with cecilia. I am really losing it. talked politics with the psychiatrist yesterday. I don't want him to drop me because i might be too sick. I mentioned i might vote for trump because he would shake things up. He responded and said he was so dangerous and it was like pre nazi germany with a charismatic leader. We both decided we weren't going to vote.
I didn't ask him yet about topamax which did curb my appetite but interfered with my memory which is so good now. I thought before when i couldn't remember things and was slow that it was from aging.
bobby