Don't let Stella leave the apartment without the pastries if she brings them. Be firm. She is not helping you by bringing them...
I always have beer in my house, and it hasn't been an issue, but let's say that wasn't the case. What she's doing is akin to someone knowing I'm an alcoholic and dropping by and leaving me a 6-pack everyday.

I'm so glad you are enjoying the Rabbi's talks and his wife's classes. That must be of some comfort. And I'm glad you have your walks with Cecilia and Sophia.

I think it's great that you started writing to your old friend. Did you send the letter? I hope this gives you an opportunity to reconnect.
I cut ties with my best friend a couple of years ago during a period of paranoia (I didn't realize I was paranoid at the time). I sent her a Christmas card. It would be nice if she responds on some way, but I'm not holding out hope.

I hope you qualify for that state program. It would be nice to get some extra help.

I'm so sorry that you are having such a hard time right now Bobby. Please try to focus on the good things in your life (your religion, your friends, your walks, and Abby). I hope that things calm down and your anxiety lets up soon. You deserve to be happy.



Kay