Thanks kicker for this thread. It is nice to read what others go through in preparation for Christmas.

I have bowed out of Christmas giving for quite a few years now with the exception of my only sibling. So many things have led me to this and being somewhat home bound, not totally as I still drive, just hurt too much to walk. Yes, I resort to online ordering but never know WHAT to order for someone that gets whatever they really want for themselves before anyone else gets a chance. I also can't afford gift giving as I struggle just to pay for the essentials each month.

When it hit me that Christmas is THIS Friday, I, too, felt panicky. Only ONE person to get a gift for and even THAT is more than I seem to be able to cope with these days.

I feel like such a Scrooge and wish things were different but they are what they are and if my sibling's kids (grown with kids of their own) don't understand, then so be it. BUT, I still feel bad that I can't GIVE to them. I used to like giving and wrapping and all the trappings that come with Christmas. Now I just treat it as just another day of the week and I am OK with that for myself.

I still get that panicky feeling when I see it so close at hand.

I can't imagine what it is like for people with children, a spouse, parents, in-laws, etc.

And for those who have recently lost loved ones, I hope you will find some peace and manage to get through the holiday season without too much heartbreak. I will be thinking of all my NT friends and wish each of you the best you can experience whatever your circumstances.