I haven't been on here in a long time. I thought I could hold on a bit longer but I can't. I HATE this season and, after last night, I don't find any reason to stay here. I'll take my chances with what happens after I die. I'm too tired to do this anymore. I can't "pretend" anymore. To T, I will always love you...you're the only one who matters. You could have done a lot better than me. I'm sorry.