Kay,

It is o.k. that you had a low key (disappointing) Christmas.

You worked hard (and for a long time) to be o.k. at Christmas. You did better than o.k. Celebrate your victories.
Congratulate yourself with some hugs and high fives.


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Re anxiety mixed with either depression or mania:
There was a 4 year period in which my medications were very wrong, but I did not know at the time how to explain what was going on and pdocs were
less alert to it than they are now.
I was probably mixed those whole 4 years and I do not know how I managed to still be around when the meds got fixed except with sheer force of will, a lot of luck, and some good will from the gods.

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Keep taking care of yourself.

M