I am a 15 year old male who jumped off my balcony onto my trampoline. I hit the trampoline with a lot of force and my knee slammed into my chin causing me to black out for a couple of seconds. My friend convinced me I was fine so I jumped on. Went to the doctor the next day and she said I could resume activity in a week.

I'm a varsity cross country runner and was very worried about missing Finals and state which were about a month from when I got concussed. I started running again when I was defiantly not okay. I ended up missing finals and state, am about a month behind in school because I'm not allowed to take tests or do homework. Being a straight A student makes it very hard to watch my grades drop with no ability to do anything about it.

Many of my family members think that I'm good enough to start excerise again. I know differently as my headaches are still all day long. For the last couple monthes I have thought I was getting better only to wake up the next day feeling worse. I'm a very emotional person and it has really been hurting my ego. My dog died and someone I'm close to is on his deathbed. Ive had suicidal thoughts, not seriously because I ultimately know that it will heal, I will make up my work, and I will get back into shape before the track season.

But it is hard especially since a lot of my friends think I am "milking" it because their concussions only lasted 2 weeks. Then on New Year's Eve which was two days ago, I got really drunk. I've never been drunk and maybe it was because I was depressed or peer pressured but it happened. I really embarresed myself to a lot of people at the party which is making me feel awful. I don't really know how the alcohol will effect my concussion long term but I can't imagine it will be good. Yesterday I could barely walk my head hurt so bad.

Today I feel a little better but I really am dreading having to go to school Monday when assured my teachers and nurse that I would get caught up on homework and be ready to take tests when I came back. It seems like such a stupid thing to get depressed about when people have way worse problems then me. I live in a good neighborhood with a good family but I feel sick to my stomach with dread. I'm not even sure if this is what this website is for but I had to vent somewhere. I actually did a bit of self harm because I was so frustrated. Nothing serious and I know it was stupid so I will probably stop, if any one has anything to say I'd love to hear.