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Originally Posted by PSTAR
StillNotNormal and Bud,
thanks for your replies.
it really helps hearing your experiences. because the PCS is so hard to grasp hearing from people with similar experiences is reassuring, especially hearing that eventually it can get better.
for me it's has been getting worse over the past days. dizziness and headaches now kick in after a couple of minutes at the computer already, so essentially I cant do anything. also the respiratory issues are getting worse.
you seem to be tough guys. I'll try to be similarly strong, though it's not easy...
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Oh PSTAR trust me when I say I have my moments. I broke down the other day, just sobbed, out of frustration and the sheer fact that I just felt awful. I'm used to multi-tasking like a champ. I used to handle deadlines no problem and work under the gun all day long. Now? I couldn't even follow funding conditions when I went back to work. I can't believe that I am going to have to start at 2 hours a day when I go back and that I won't even be able to even think about doing any figures. It's unbelievable to me, but here I am.
I don't feel strong. What I feel is determined. I'm not going to let this beat me. No way. So yesterday, I did nothing and you know what, today I feel better. That's one good day. I'm going to keep staying away from reading and the computer (this is an exception) today in hopes of having two good days in a row. I'm going to keep my head up and keep fighting and keep believing that it will get better and I will recover. There is no other option. My mind is injured but it is still powerful, and what I believe I will achieve.
Keep fighting the good fight. Baby steps. One good day at a time. We'll both get there.