I have been wondering how you've been doing and I'm really sorry that you're in so much pain and are so down tonight.

If at all possible please call someone to come over to be with you so that you're not alone, although I know from the other thread where you told us of your situation that you're in a rural area, so having someone come over may not be possible.

If you urgently need to talk to someone because of how badly you're feeling, please call
Lifeline New Zealand
as they have 24 hr counselling - For outside Auckland, phone 0800 543 354

If you want to talk here online, please do that too although I know you have a lot of trouble typing. Just hold on there indigo. I know you've investigated so many options to help you with your pain but there must be something that can be done. There must be.

I hope you feel more settled soon and can get some sleep.