Hi indigo

I sent you a PM.

Sometimes the answers to mental & physical problems seem impossible to find. You worked really hard to manage your life since you developed depression at 18 and that shows you have an enormous inner strength. Right now your confidence in your ability to continue is exhausted. It's really hard to think straight and stay strong when everything seems impossible.

Just for tonight try to focus on the things that helped you manage in the past - use those thoughts to induce calm and to reassure yourself that dealing with obstacles is something you do know how to do. If you can quieten your mind enough to get some rest it will help to give you clarity and assurance to face tomorrow.

As Lara said if you really need to talk with someone or want someone to be with you please make the calls.

Stay in touch. bluesfan