I would just like to say this to a very loving daughter
You are on your life's journey with such adversities and decisions
to make
You are NOT alone
This is not your fight
You make the choices right for you
Ask for help if you need it
Dealing with health professionals is a task
No need to go it alone
YOU ARE A LOVING DAUGHTER
make no mistake
Your father now recognizing he may need to sober up first and foremost is a great thing
Please know you have only a limited amount of control
As dear Alffe put it
It is out of your hands
Now you may want to see if attending a open meeting with him
Or meetings for someone such as yourself for possible codependency
what happens when we want to try and help not to see a loved one suffer and not realize it is happening to you also
Your strength I pray not hindered by the task you have taken on for love of school a daughter who also needs mommy and grandpa
You need to fulfill your dream and be that teacher you already are
Grandpa is sick right now in obvious many areas all coming to a head
I too have a daughter Saraeve who in the year 2003 April suffered her first grandmaul seizure and many sad depressing year for this now country traveling POET at thirty four
Getting ready for "the woman of the world event" will be held in New York my muse
Her failed brain surgery occipital lobe partial removal
Hence the loss of eye sight
No erratication of seizure
I had no clue she tried to commit suicide taking her meds and drank them down with alcohol
She survived but I could not fix what was wrong
I have had my own bouts
It is not my children's responsibility to make it their job to
take care of my mental state
I needed help in my lifetime
Many a times
Not ashamed to say so
I have taken what I needed and left the rest behind
My children have lives of their own to live
A difficult road for all four of my children
You and your love for dad is nowhere to be measured
You are a wonderful daughter who has a daughter herself
And I am privileged they want me in their lives
There are many types of people
In the sibling world
I believe you are the oldest of the three of you
I can say most times first born children are much different then those born in a different order
Your shoulders are broad
Please take this from a place of concern for a fellow human being
You will reach a threshold in everything you do in life
This is something you need help with

And you can
Ask for that help that is sometimes not offered
In college is there not a place you can turn to professional
persons who may need a shoulder to lean on
I am almost certain there is some form of help
Reach out as you do here
Continue to share
Let the bricks of helping someone you love and know YOU nor anyone else can stop him
But both you and him can start by attending an AA Meeting to get sober and you can accompany him to "open" meetings
Something you can do together
And then meetings for yourself for codependency you may not even see it
It wouldn't hurt
I wish you some relief of this terrible suffering your dad and you are in
My money is on YOU
stay in school
NEVER let anything allow you to waiver from your BLISS
Good luck to a very special individual
May you all come together during his road to sobriety
It will get bumpy.
But you found US
PEACE
Love
Me