thanks and yes i DO matter...for a long time i didn't think that. I have had the same GP that has stuck with me and assisted with what i NEEDED help with as it arose....My cardio issues sort of is treated with meds but it still gets like other areas seem to have moments where it overrides the meds to do just what it wants to and feel like i dont take anything...unfortunately (its an odd thing this condition, we ALL are diagnosed with same thing but we all react differently and require different meds or treatments for the same thing) I have pain all the time on all parts, I have a "rolling" pain at times that starts at tips of toes and rolls UP the body to my head then rolls down again...or i have my usual pain and then on top of that a limb or some place will have the hot needles or extra do not touch skin pain. I am covered up even in summer because the slightest breeze kills. i DONT go wow is me please feel sorry for me...I am STUBBORN and I am proud, i give each thing several TRIES to succeed and if i finally can NOT do it then i will ask for help...and sometimes i am watched trying and trying and they finally go..do u need a hand with that...lol ... and i am not a negative person, this is the most I have ever spoken at any one given time for a long time, but feeling glum and overwhelmed at moment i just needed to talk WITH others like me. My "glumness" is not because...no make that ...is NOT because of my condition but due to my seretonin levels and this toxicity i was experiencing. I have ceased one med and reduce 2 others that have been a MAJOR medicaiton for years now. All 3 are seretonin produces so my brain has probably NOT produced its own in about 12 years, so stopping it all now it wont be producing any and my body is reacting to that...with the constant crying and feeling overwhelmed by it all. So i cant just sit here on my own and have my brain go into chill out no think mode. it HAS to think and do and over busy...so typing helps if it means replying to a post and thinking how ANOTHER person is feeling then it refocuses its attention elsewhere, and i DO like to HELP others