I cried when I read this. So beautifully expressed. I love music. I speaks to my soul. My main expression of music was through movement, dance. I will never spin, twirl or move my feet to the music again in the same way.
I agree it feels like parts of me have died over the past year. The grief is deep and so hard to process. I am fighting to get to the other side and sometimes I feel like I'm drowning.
Music has also been a saving grace throughout all of this. I can put in my earbuds and sometimes float away. Music is a huge part of our family life as well, so it still helps us connect to each other in so many ways.
I have much to be thankful for. I remind myself many times a day. I am trying to build a new version of my life. I still have a long way to go. Thank you for your post. ~mac